ah sees it may whay

just amazed by the most fundamental of facts: that two folks can perceive the same stimuli or info with such differing responses. one says: no big, the other says BIG DEAL,biggie. so like someone might twip on something whereas someone else is so like 'whatever'
i WANT to be that 'whatver ' type-o-person but infact take on peoples' hurts and pangs so much on a daily basis. learning to 'catch-and-release' rather than relapse into fretting over their so oft unsolvable(in the classic sense) major stuff

chrysalis is a very highly evolving revolving status stage level layer

chrysalis: the concept seems to acquire so much vitality
it's a time when the 'pillar ain't no pillar no more and the fly ain't outta the butter yet, buster
so being in that stage
saftey is needed
well, is there satiation on safety?
prolly nay, however
i've lived my life for safety(which in the case of being sober and weed-free is SUBLIME and COURAGEOUS
but which in the art realm of not havig the umphh to get my stuff out there
(Read in the times of THE CITY how some are sticking their artworks and messages into books and it's called anarchy in the aisles but all they're doin' is giving freebees so the lawyer for the article didn't know if it was illegal
in the prog we never advertise but we do let folks know'
we is here
come and get healing

salary sloop

i'm home this eventide and just polished off talking to some friends and also fixering up some salary soup(i keep the bestest parts and chop off the endgames and cook the rest?
what is my recipe, you ask?
did n't realize you were game
Okay:
1 part lotsa celery, the parts you don't wanna munch with your cream de wheat of a morning
2 parts unsweetened TJ's soy milk
3 parts purple red or sweet vidalia
4 parts britta water
5 parts potato(alas, none in thsi here batch)
6 seasonings galore
7 one can of campbell's low flat celery soup
8parts cabbage,green
8a soft tofu package 14 american ozs
9 cook n' serve
feeds one(or more...?)

DOOMaflatch has cool artings, .....but...

i like his stuff however it is too one diamond-shun-all
MAKING UNIQUE ART REQUIRES COURAGEOUS VISIONARY AND MUCH REBUSE

rooster explores his realm; mother-cows-awaiting their chill mash

saw a rooster today
freed as could be
reminded me of the bull goose looney

all surround him were maternal many-nippled sows, shivering relentlessly in their smarter than dogs concrete walkways, no pleasure in life but more of the same raw cold cornmash

my religionist has becalmed: healing soberificationistically ART

into the stream
thoroughly unrushing
not harried
seated and intensely intent

in the tents of the gods
let us worship and become practictioners of the goddess of art
she has harsh truths
yet her selfsame revelations
our only hopers is

my religionist has becalmed: healing soberificationistically ART

into the stream
thoroughly unrushing
not harried
seated and intensely intent

in the tents of the gods
let us worship and become practictioners of the goddess of art
she has harsh truths
yet her selfsame revelations
our only hopers is

regrets? I've quite the few

they are so score-oriented at these northeastern schools
to me, if only kids could be taught (much more importantly than NAME YOUR FIFTY STATE CAPITOLS)
how to LOVE themselves and others and play fair
ach, what a schatze
what a fein earth That would be, O ja!

i am LOADED with regrets about mylife
1. "IF" i hadn't been an alkie i was on track to get a phd in chemistry/geology(one of the two)
or at least become a civil engineer
2. i was planning on going into private practice in what i do now but went instead for the safe teat
3. i regret moving so far from family way back when, in reaction to my dumb old dad's dying so young
4. i regret having so much ego involved in my art so that i didn't have the ummmmphh to seller it back when
and such.

allegories gone aglay

watching the trilogy(if you need to ask 'which trilogy?...tis the ring, )
and since all are actors even the ponies
it seems vital to reacall that it's all fear
and failure

today a friend had to stand up and take what was once called a group criticism and not come unglued nor plummet plunger kerplunk into self debasement

ach, each day that is what my mind tells me i'm no goo
and others are goo
so i feel loving oneself is so tough at times when i wasn't loved as a small child
the pogram heps with that for sarton

let the faved particles together join

just as in the penultimate pre-glowering of an epictetus miestro zong
the last bitsie of the fflimglam 'ere the creditors steppe in
just as then all unbigbang and collapse back into a specirifed site settling in for the grand roustamup
so in this artformatulatron
we inchoate the pieclings
you see
they call this stream of conscious or joycean
but really if you just listen and stellar in a abit
it is goodness
it depends on who says it, you see?

sugar won, i lost, needisaymore?

sugar and me wrassled
sugar:3
me:-14
i tried but yes i had 14(somewhat smallish) slices of a full sheet cake
my plan had actually been to have had none
the score then would have been
sugar:0
me:!

to think that i had it in my hand and dropppered it

To think I KNEW it when i was but twenty and four that none of these work fretters nor religiousities was the answerve and i started on the right path to uttermost healings:veganism, sobriety(well, dryness,actually) therapy, yoga, making arts and my own song composites
and the i discovered booze and then i rediscovered weed and
i threw so much down the rat's hole
stsill barely above wafer now

to depict and describe, nay decry, trumps the photog monkey-mechanist

i shan't deny the photo whoops the written so muchly
but why are flims less than books, author' readers?
and why tread and traipse rather than just inspect on the fly?
also flying to the tip of the mount is not considered much of a hike,nay,yea?

I re-commend to be a cub reporter and writhe and depict the impressions thereof unto

to depict and describe, nay decry, trumps the photog monkey-mechanist

i shan't deny the photo whoops the written so muchly

but why are flims less than books, author' readers?

and why tread and traipse rather than just inspect on the fly?

also flying to the tip of the mount is not considered much of a hike,nay,yea?


I re-commend to be a cub reporter and writhe and depict the impressions thereof unto

beyond all these leashed-in artsing catagaras

She feels we gotta go beyond all these categories and unleash and step outside and settle in like frontierswomen and like inner astronauts

beyond all these leashed-in artsing catagaras

She feels we gotta go beyond all these categories and unleash and step outside and settle in like frontierswomen and like inner astronauts

gladdening and unmaddening: Ach, but 'low 'em to whirl about so, aye.

on this rainful night here in the vale
as the dishes whirl and joust
I'm sippin' some green tea(decaf)
and listening to an old tape of alan watts lecturing off his house boat moored off the coast of marin...

so lost in the holds of alkie haul izm t'was myself and me , I I aye

onomatopoeia commandos of Pompeii
amino communal of pothole
anemone conformal of porthole:
where was you back a when
when I was drunkarding to help heal my babycore withered wherewithal,woooooooo